I was sensitve kid - I often cried. A bit neglected emotionally etc. My "dad" yelled most of the time, like it was default agressive voice tone. He didn't teach me anything, didn't talk, didn't hug me. Just yelling. For example, I did something wrong, instead of calmly, I shouted and used a pretentious tone. I held the drill incorrectly and shouted how I may not know that. Because of this I often cried, I suppressed a lot of negative emotions, which I felt in my throat. Don't cry because you're not a woman. Scream because I was shy and afraid and what's there to be afraid of...