First, and most important, hi! What's swinging brother? Sounds like you're having a tough go of it right now and I wish I could take you for a drink and joint, give you a big hug and find a way to convince you that it's going to be ok. 'Cause it is. I'm 37, stuttered my whole life. It ain't Fucking easy and social interactions will always be a bitch but it does get better. 2nd, keep up with the therapy. I know it's expensive and the gains are slow but it does seem to help. Better than doing nothing, that's for sure. 3rd, try not to worry about what others think of you. Their opinion only matters as far as you let it. Love yourself. And I know, I hear you saying "of course other people's opinions matter! How am I going to get laid? Get a better job? Huh?" I hear you, but understand this: women respond to confidence. Other men respond to confidence. I may stutter, but I don't give a Fuck because what I have to say is worth the wait. You don't have the time? Want to give me shit? FUCK YOU! My life is better without your dumb ass, guaranteed! (See "Forrest Whittaker" by Brother Ali for further inspiration on this theme.) That goes doubly for professionals you're paying! Nurses laughing at your stutter? Get their boss involved, that isn't how professionals should act. Cuss 'em out! Remember, cursing doesn't come from the same part of the brain as the rest of your speech. Even when I'm stuck so bad I can barely get a sound out, I can cuss someone up one side and down the other. But, here's the thing, they aren't going to laugh at you. Doctors and nurses usually truly want to help. Finally, to bring it back around, know you're not alone. There are others like myself out here and we understand. Take it a day at a time and learn to love yourself. You're worth loving. Edit: couple typos