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I’m really relieved that some people may have a positive reaction to this, it makes me feel like less of an ass because my intention was never to make him feel worse. As I’ve thought about it I guess my attraction to his stutter is less of me being attracted to the stutter itself and more of me being attracted to him as a person and all of his little quirks and imperfections. (Crinkles by his eyes when he laughs, the very few grey hairs starting to grow in, and I love hearing him stutter when he talks about something he’s passionate about because that means he’s excited.) so I don’t necessarily think it’s all about the stutter itself. I love the emotions attached to why he’s stuttering in that moment. (Ex: when he was nervous to flirt with me when we first met, when he gets excited about a big project he’s working on, when he tells a joke that he knows will make me die of laughter.) I think the stutter being connected to his passion and excitement and emotional attachment to me is what makes me think I like it. Hearing his stutter has become a symbol of emotional expression and maybe I’ve confused “liking his stutter” with liking when he’s emotional vulnerable and I feel connected with him. I’m really glad everyone’s responded so kindly and helped me sort this out. It’s really helped a lot!