I agree. You might be at fault for no longer making any efforts as you have said. What am saying is if you didn't stutter you would probably be the most social person and you would definitely not be as isolated and lonely so its the stutter. Its not good to blame 'others' for your misfortunes but dont blame this one on yourself, accept that its the stutter and work on it. >like a black hole that sucks away every other aspect of myself from what people see when we interac BRO YOU CAN WRITE!! You should be an author or something🙌