Yeah bro i can relate to ur sitch as i've also been walking through life with the blessing of a socially debilitating stutter🥸🤯. Why blessing? Because it slowed me down. i'm a college dropout too, having experienced that sweet feeling of everything and EVERYBODY rushing past me in a soulless race to win some bread in their bellies (thankfully got out laughing at the absurdity of it all vs crying over what is not mine). And that right there is the first thing to take notice of: this world and all the commotion in it, is NOT YOURS. Not yours to feel guilty about. Not yours to feel depressed over. Not yours to be punished for. So let yourself realise a firm divide between you and all else. Truly, the world is what the humans make of it. And you too have a destiny to fulfill. But I do hope you can see that with all their speaking, they've made a God damn mess! They should be struck by stutter!⚡️ 😆 Imagine how many were gifted the fortune of fluent speech and used it to backbite others and curse and destroy instead of build and love and understand. So be one of the few who choose to live by the goodness and only good people will be able to connect with you. This kind of living allows authentic interactions to take place, instead of forced or half-hearted relationships. And remember: a person not willing to understand through your stutter is a person not worthy of your company anyway. They wouldn't enrich ur life so why be sad over such things? Calm acceptance and calm living within myself is something i still struggle with. But boy is the view nice from the top. I pray ur guided to good.