Bruh you just described my whole life.. kind of. I developed my stutter when I was about 7 or 8, and it was quite severe but it went away mostly. It's sort of always been there since then, but only mildly and usually only when I read stuff infront of people. I used to be fine just talking normally, I only stuttered when I thought about what I was saying and worried about it. Recently however (I'm 14) it has been coming back, even just mid conversation I just won't be able to start my sentence, and it has had the impact on me again that I don't speak as much incase I stutter. I hate it so much, it knocks my confidence so much. Wish it would go awat