I understand where your coming from. But how did you get there. How did you not let it control your life? I struggle and battle daily with myself, even if I talk to no one. I’ve been through professional help for years and I’m in the same rut. The depression and self hatred is still there. I cannot accept what this is. Thank you for explaining more in depth. I apologize for coming off like I did. I hope to see more of your guidance and your post.