A huge part in any stutterers life is the "fakeness". Almost nobody knows a stutterers true personality. Generally shy,avoidant and fake smiling(or even fake rude) a lot because we are begging nobody asks us anything. You can never be the funny guy,the ladies man(even though by temperament you may be funny and charming you cant express it), you lose every argument before it even starts and it slowly eats you up from the inside.