I woke up feeling the same way. I miss being “fluent” even though I don’t remember how was it like since I started stuttering at the age of 9. Sometimes I just like to remind myself that stuttering is just another language, and it isn’t my problem if lots of people aren’t educated about it or there are people who would made fun of me or they might be people who think that I probably have a weak personality because I stutter. I don’t think it’s healthy to think that way, it would only makes how you feel about your stutter worse! There are techniques you could use while talking, I used them only when I was making presentations. I want my way of speaking to be normalized! Why do we have to cover it up when we DO NOT HAVE TO so that people don’t think we are weird! Even by my stutters friends whom use those techniques in their daily lives, they still stutter.. most of them said that we can control it, we have phases where we don’t stutter much but it’s still there.. SO DO NOT FIGHT IT! For me personally, I’m working on being “neutral” with my stutter. I don’t have to fully accept it but I still don’t have to fully like it. I even stopped telling people whom I talk to for the first time that I stutter before I say what I wanna say.. wanna know what was their reaction? Absolutely NOTHING! They must have got it on their own, and continued listening to me. Some of them ask, and I don’t mind telling them that I have a speech disability. I still struggle when I’m out ordering from a restaurant or asking a worker at a shop to look for my size, I won’t lie and say that it’s sometimes THE WORST THINK ever and I’ve had lots of suicidal thoughts because of my stutter. Just please don’t hide yourself, show up, and be yourself! Me and everyone here are always here to listen and support. <3