I'm in the same situation. My family just thinks of it as a minor inconvenience. I know people have it 1000 times worse but being able to communicate is so important. I'm the manager at a thrift store. It's not much but It's hard dude. Hard to train without looking like idk wtf I'm talking about. I know what I want to say and I know how to lead a team...but i can't even talk to freaking customers on the phone. It's hard saying you're the manager when you can't even introduce yourself without a speech block. The company has a hard time understanding why I want to communicate through email. I get that sometimes it has to be a phone conversation...but it still sucks the life out of me. I'm so lucky to have a wonderful coworker that will literally talk on the phone pretending to be me. It's embarrassing but I'm so grateful for her. I envy people that are fluent. I want to be able to tell a joke without having to struggle so hard. I see the people's faces.