Hitting our breaking point is when we can change. We don't change when we are comfortable, we get complacent. Once you hit rock bottom you decided to do something about your speech. It's all about facing your fear. I ran from my stuttering until my mid 20's. Then I decided to do something about it. Go take a public speaking class, call random stores to practice on the phone, seek out speech therapy. Take one of the intensive classes like AIS offers in NYC. Just make it happen brother, everything you ever wanted in life is on the other side of fear.