I 100% get you Brodie. Stuttering sucks, not gunna undercut it. Some days there’s days that are awesome and some that suck, it happens, but those feelings of desperation are temporary. You never would want to do something from temporary feelings that would impact your future self. Whenever I have a hard day (in general) I say in my head over and over a quote from JFK “pray not for easier times but pray to become a stronger man.” Best of luck