Speech therapy seems hopeless

Speech therapy seems hopeless Im 20 years old. I go to speech therapy once a week, and we always do the same exercises. It just feels old. I’ve noticed some improved fluency but not a lot. It also seems to me that my speech therapist just doesn’t care anymore. She just rushes me out of the appointments. I don’t have a single friend or even a girlfriend all because of my bad genetics. I’m so lonely. I wish I was dead.