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Throat hurts So basically my stuttering got worse again.. I had a presentation at school and got a C. I dot rly care about the grade but basically everyone agreed she just rated my on my speech and how I behaved during the presentation and not the information I have given. So it suddenly hit me that some ppl will always judge me for my stutter (also she knows I have a stutter.. And the next dude after me had so much bad info in his presentation but got a B somehow...) Next week I had another presentation and my stutter was so bad.. I had so many blocks.. After some weeks in school I noticed my throat would hurt everytime I had a block cuz my muscles in throat were so tense.. I guess.. This never happened before and I'm scared it would be new "normal" for me.. I hope it goes away.. Later that day I called my sis, who is a speech therapist,and I was just talking to her about all this, but i was so out of breath and my throat would hurt at the end of a call. I just feel like it was all started by that one presentation and got worse over the time. Even my classmates are like "damn your stutter got worse".. Like is it that noticeable ..? Thankfully my classmates are rly amazing and are patient with me when speaking.. I just had to get these emotions out. I have fully accepted myself and my stutter but I don't rly want to feel physical pain while talking.. Like damn during one of those bad blocks I almost cried in the class cuz my throat hurt so bad and one bad memory came up in my mind.. Like damn I'm 19 pls I don't want to be 12 again and cry in classes.. I'm going to do some exercises with my sister and I hope it will help..