This is a good start in identifying your fears. Will you take on the challenge of voluntarily confronting what obstacle lay in your path, such as speaking. Or will you shy away from the danger. If you voluntarily confront your fear in very very small incremental chunks you can develop bravery in the face of your fear of speaking which will simulataneously reduce your suffering and likely increase your self-esteem. Look, stuttering is suffering, there is no other way to put it. The people who seem to 'survive' per se with less suffering are those who challenge their fears rather than hide in a box. The unacceptable truth is that we were born with a disability that can cause psychological havoc in regards to suffering and it's your responsibility to pull yourself out of that. And if you can't, you will continue to post quotes related to unbearable suffering in how you view your speech and your life.