* "Speech block A: relying on demands to execute speech movements (such as, I've mentioned above) (**solution**: I fixed this by stopping overreliance on ANY demand. In other words, I execute speech movements immediately despite fear, panic, etc, without relying on demands, such as, requiring myself to calm down or reduce triggers in order to execute speech movements. So, I basically broke the shackles that bound me. **Result**: I don't stutter anymore from Speech block A)" Very interesting and may bring some closure to my last paragraph in the last reply. Maybe in those instances I was relying on "demand" to execute speech. I was both nervous on "what" I was going to say and whether I could say it thus relying on "demanding" myself to talk whether I had something in mind to say or not! Wow this is giving me some more clarity, thank you! ​ * "Speech block C: incorrect timing to execute speech movements (such as, as a child I used to apply a maladaptive "timing demand" to execute speech movements, such that, only if I perceive a certain amount of glottal air pressure against my speech muscles, I would execute speech movements - which by itself creates a stutter disorder) (**solution**: I fixed this by replacing this maladaptive **timing demand/programming** with "I execute speech movements immediately, whenever my articulatory starting position is set"). **Result**: I don't stutter anymore from Speech block type - C" Wow, very interesting. Creating our own stutter disorders by themselves from what we perceived to be a necessity! ​ *But, I still stutter sometimes, due to* ***Speech block D****: neck pain.* *Argument: Because during stuttering development I "learned" to associate speaking (or rather, executing speech movements) with deciding to evoke neck pain. So, whenever I justify the stutter state (such as, whenever I have a reason to stutter, or whenever I perceive myself as a PWS), then I decide to evoke neck pain. To prevent myself from fainting (due to this neck pain), I choose to halt movements of my speech muscles: aka I stutter. My neck pain has nothing to do with tension by the way, as there is no tension.* *I believe that I have associated neck pain to speech, because as a child, I subconsciously wanted to develop a "random" stutter pattern so that listeners wouldn't assume that I'm stuttering on purpose. As a child, my mum stuttered and she often mentioned to me that she wants a child who also stutters. Argument: Because my mum feared the idea of a child who doesn't stutter. She thought that, if her child doesn't stutter, then her child might not properly understand the mother's stutter experience), makes sense?* *Speech block D:* ***Solution****: Currently. I'm trying to solve Speech block D by applying the following intervention:* *Step 1: by acknowledging (aka accepting) "I associate executing speech movements with deciding neck pain".* *Step 2: I tell myself: don't decide neck pain (during a stutter). If the neck pain then leaves, it results in stopping with stuttering.* ​ I have seen stutterers who struggle right in the neck area as I can see it move and tense up as they try to force out the word. I always thought this was trying to use tension to exert the word out and I think I got lucky in that during my journey of self awareness, one of the first things I did was decide to repeat the word before the stutter until I felt I could continue on or felt the stutter let up, that's how I viewed it conceptually anyway. So Basically, I repeated the word before and all of a sudden I felt I could talk again and easily continue on. In this way I avoided any movement, any tension I was starting or compounding on my own, and I simply knew that in this moment in time, something seemed to be interfering with me being able to continue forward and I just needed to wait for it to let up. I had thought by practicing this reaction that I developed strong neural connections in knowing the result I am looking for, the "let up," and now it tends to happen almost instantly most times. That's why I began calling it back tracking rather than repetition, because where-as before I went back a word or 2 and kept repeating it only until i felt the stutter state let up and allow me to continue forward, now just going back and..I think as we said, instructing execution of speech movements again, it's as though I'm creating the "let up" of the stutter state myself. Before, I was just scared of starting to lean in and use tension and believed that it would let go on it's own anyway whether I tried to tense through it or not. As you can see, I had a more confused outlook before when I started this self journey (deciding to leave what I was taught by speech therapists behind but was still full of questions) but luckily the reaction I chose to execute in the moment back then was one that bypassed trying to lean through and use tension myself on the block or area where I felt I couldn't get past. My reaction was just to wait it out. Repeating words that came before was just my way of buying time.