I feel the exact same way right now. I feel like If I was mute, people wouldn't be annoyed by me and I'd be happier. On the other side it would be frustrating not being able to speak at all. It would've affected me mentally and socially. When I was growing up I didn't say my first words until I was 4. These days however I wish that I wouldn't have spoke at all, because of the amount of frustrating, humiliating and awkward situations that I had to go through, and the shit I still have to go through today.