I dont apologize but I feel ashamed of myself. It´s like I think that they think less of me cause of my block and at the same time im wishing for they aproval. So if I stammer is less likely that they think good of me. Saying "sorry" is like saying: sorry for being this way and stand next to you. Or sorry for wasting your time. Like all the focus on the world is set on them and his or her desire instead of myself. Well, that is me. Take care.