I don't find the need to develop any further on this topic, owing to your perfect example. Just a little suggestion/ advice: If you're struggling with your speech and you desperately want to conquer the physiological side of it, you, my friend, are not on the right track. Acing the psychiatric aspect, when working on overcoming your fears, is the real DEAL- one that's not everyone's cup of tea. I suggest you start working on the technical aspect of it and begin developing a new habitual way of speaking by applying various speech techniques that suit you the most. No two stutterers are the same, and what worked for me might not work for you. I wish you the best of luck with this stuttering journey of yours. You will get there one day :)