I think I’m at the end of my rope

I think I’m at the end of my rope I’ve been feeling extra hope less lately. Like my life is just a shit show of social anxiety and not being able to speak like a normal person. I’m only 21 but sometimes I wonder if life is gonna be like this forever because it’s been like this since I was 14 with no let ups. And if it is I just have no interest in sticking around