I felt this way. I even went to an intensive therapy program where I adjusted the way I spoke to try and control my stuttering. It worked at the time but even when it was working, I just didn't feel like myself and felt like I was compromising who I was. Also eventually it stopped working. The better answer I found was to find a therapist who could help me communicate the way I enjoy communicating, but making it easier on myself. This is not controlling my stutter but the opposite, letting it happen without holding back. Most of the struggle we have is because we don't want to stutter because we don't want to "sound bad" or because we're trying so hard to avoid the struggle. But we can work on slowly letting that stuff go and stutter openly and comfortable; as fast or slow as you'd like.