You could have the best intentions with someone, and still that wouldnt guarantee a healthy relationship with someone or that someone loving you back. Real love is unconditional love like the one Jesus gave us in the cross. Loving us with all our imperfections. Have you tried virtual reality? There are simulations that give you the chance to do public speaking in various environments. There is even the option for real people to ask you questions after your speech. We could pratice if you want to. Is all about getting use to the environments. I know stutterers suffer alot and it gives feelings that make us feel worthless. But do you know what is really worse than feeling worthless? Not doing anything about it.