>Whenever i tried to understand what happens during stuttering it feels like i lost my consciousness Of speaking and my chain of thoughts and i just feel lost, and i feel like alien like i doesn't belong here Very well put, I can relate with this. What drives me crazy is that I do not stutter when alone, so it feels so pointless preparing for a presentation at work or an interview/meeting as I already know it will just be a shitshow. I often practice with my wife before a presentation and I do not stutter when talking to her, so she's always like "you worry too much, you'll be fine" when I know it's not gonna be fine at all. For me this is all a huge mistery, the fact we are absolutely able to be fluent but at the same time we can't speak properly in front of others.