I'm sorry to hear about the shitty in your life, my friend. That saddens me deeply. Nobody should ever experience that. Blobfish_fun, what were the jobs you missed out on because of your stutter? I hope you educated those fkers who put you down at least lol Whether virtual or in person you've shown pride in yourself by talking about it. Kudos. I try my best everyday to make a difference in a positive way and keep that positivity flowing because shit could be alot worse if you really think about it. Anyway, My stutter often puts limitations on my choice of words and what I'll actually say too. I tried many activities like sports, college, relationships etc. but the focus is always on what to say and timing words to avoid stuttering. Saying as little as possible basically and sounding dumb but you aren't. You just literally can't get the words out fluently. It's mentally and physically exhausting on me too so I get it man. When I get real excited about something with the people I'm comfortable around I stutter like a mfker. Ssss, lllll, mmmmm 🙄