commentr/StutterJuly 21, 2022

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I had an incident a couple years ago which i still remember like it happened yesterday. I met a guy in my first month of university and he asked me a question. I got stuck on a noun that took me over 10 seconds, and I kinda clench my face when I'm stuck and put pressure on the word. He started laughing trying to control himself but eventually let go and laughed like he has never saw something funnier in his entire life. He was out of breath from laughing and was holding a chair to balance him that's how much he found it funny for some reason. He kept laughing for 3-5 minutes and I was just staring at him dumbfounded on how my distress can make someone laugh this much. He just kinda said sorry and went away but to this day, 6 years later, I still remember it everyday and I feel mad. I've had to go through a lot of shit in my life including poverty, almost being homeless etc but this was still one of the worst moment in my life. I've always felt ashamed of that moment instead of being mad at the guy for some reason. I've had a lot of other moments as well where people chuckle and try to hide it etc but this def tops the list.

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Emotional ExperienceIdentity & Disability

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Shame & EmbarrassmentFrustration & AngerStigma & Bullying