I get it, it's rough. I think it does come down to our brains as people who stutter and just finding something that helps. There really shouldn't be a stigma around this, and on top of stuttering you've got the mental weight that comes with living with the disorder. If you haven't done it yet I'd suggest the Dr. Maguire interview on stuttertalk about Ecopipam. We've got a nice line of medications on the horizon and a few that have already shown some effects.