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Has anyone else became passive? I'm a 23 year old guy and I've had a lifelong stutter. It's moderate, but I stutter with most people I speak with. Unlike a lot of people who stutter, I've got a high self esteem and I don't have much negative feelings about my stutter. However my stutter has involuntary made me a passive person. I would have been an extrovert had it not been for my stutter. A lot of times, when I'm stuttering in a group of people, I go numb in the sense that I block out all feelings related to my stutter. I don't even feel bad. Even the fact that it makes me appear emasculated and under confident doesn't bother me. It doesn't make feel bad, nor good - just numb. I think this reflects in other aspects of my life as well - in terms of relationships, I don't agressively pursue girls. For example, in a social gathering, I can talk to girls but I know I can't talk to them smoothly like how other people do. It does make me feel bad, but I've grown not to dwell to much on such things. Like for example I could never charm a group of people with my speech. If I ever got into a relationship, I'd probably stutter with her. Something i ideally don't want to, but in a strange sort of way, it feels good because maybe I like being vulnerable with her. Pretty weird Even though I appear passive, I don't let people walk over me. Being passive isn't what I'd choose to be, I've become one and surprisingly it doesn't feel bad