You're right. Without all that I did before to get rid of most of the shame of stuttering, I doubt I would have been able to do what I do now at the rate I've done it. People have their own journeys and pace, but I saw that as no reason to keep my insights to myself even if people don't make immediate use of it. Somebody make come back to this 5 years from now and take immense value from it. In any case, I don't think anybody reading this, no matter where they are in their acceptance journey, would be unable to grasp intellectually the point I'm making that they're not really a victim and stuttering is something you create- inadvertently. If they come to really believe this and understand they can uncreate it, then somewhere down the line that may bring motivation to let it all out? By knowing there is an end in sight. As for the meditation bit, if you only see it as a small part of your day, an exercise or chore if you will, then it definitely won't be effortless. I prefer to see every waking second as a meditative journey, and so there's not really much of a difference between my actual meditation sessions and second-to-second living. This is done by absorbing myself in everything I do. And just like when meditating, of course distractions will come to mind. When I become aware of this, I return my attention to what I was doing. Rinse and repeat. It doesn't matter how long you get distracted for. Be kind to yourself and set no expectations. Simply develop the habit of returning to your present activity once you realise you got distracted. Eventually you start noticing the distractions faster. So I'm not necessarily always watching my thoughts and checking they're of the right content to indulge in, I'm more choosing to focus on some present activity, then when thoughts arise, it's easy to notice because I know I'm not fully engaged in what I'm doing (meditating, studying, cooking, etc, etc).