Life-long stutterer here in my late 40s. I feel your pain, but my best recommendation would be to take every situation and event as they come and just do the best you can to get thru it. Everyone in my family and in my business life knows I stutter, and sometimes I’ll trip over my words and not be able to get them out. But I’ve never had a situation where someone gave me a hard time because of it. I just try to take deep breathes and slow down when I speak. It’s never 100%, but it is what is it. I’m sorry you’re going thru a hard time, really. If you need to chat, please dm me.