Not sure I'm on the same page as you... Do you get low energy, or do you feel spent from the effort? Or is it just not rewarding? I used to see others at parties talking and interacting for hours and hours. I never felt rewarded from such interactions. If anything, I was only there because of the social norms. Given the choice, I'd rather be reading a book or anywhere else. But there is a human drive to be around other people. To be part of a group. Do you have any activities you enjoy that put you in a group setting without the need for speaking? Choir, sports, etc? I hope I'm not misunderstanding you and hijacking your post.