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Wish the life was short... Hello fellow sufferers, I am new here and have been reading this reddit for quite some time and i can see there are many who are going through same level of suffering as i am. I don't have anybody to tell this all so i am just letting it out here to have some peace, maybe. So i have been stuttering as long as i can remember, it even feels to me that i was born with a stutter. I have lead a miserable life because of this stutter, while i did had some good happy moments but hard to remember because all i think about is my stutter. i didn't go to university after college because i was too damn afraid of speaking, and i already had a bad time at college. I don't meet anyone, don't call anyone. It's a nightmare for me when i have to meet some relative, or i have to call bank, or order food when there's no app. i can't talk to women, or even men because of this stutter. i have no career, i just hustle online for living because i can't get any jobs because of this stutter, although i never apply for any job as i am afraid too. i rarely talk in my family and friends because whenever i do, i stutter. i start to shake and sweat when i stutter infront of people, sudden anxiety attacks. I am 26 and i don't know how long will this suffering take to end. I am at the point where i am abusing myself, making fun of myself for talking like a weirdo. I have very severe social anxiety and depression. To the point where no therapists can help. I am sorry for all the negativity up there, i wish there was some solution. Be strong everyone, we'll get through ;)