Worse than bad

Worse than bad I was today on a meeting with friends. Sun, vacation vibe, playing, and a lots of talking. And my speech was worse than bad. I stuttered near EVERY. FU**ING. WORD. That was horrible. Every sentence with hard, kinda long blocks, and lips/head trembling. I feel tired now, miserable and... I dont know. I'm just sad/angry that i cant speak fluently. I see those people speaking with that fantastical lightness, they just spitting words out freely. I cant. It's annoying. Just wanted to vent or smth.