Hey dude, it sounds like you’re going through it. I just wanted to chime in as I have some maybe, hopefully, helpful thoughts. I also have ADHD. I don’t have a stutter so not going to pretend I know how that feels, but I am a clutterer which is sort of similar, also a fluency disorder and means I can have a hard time communicating. I’m also a speech and language therapist. I relate to a lot of what you’ve said- for me life was just utter intolerable chaos that I couldn’t see a way out of right through my 20s. Things are a lot better now but it was a slow, army crawl to get here and I honestly still have moments of being amazed that I never ended up homeless or properly damaged from addiction etc. So that’s the first thing I want to tell you- things won’t always feel like this even if you literally can’t imagine anything different. The second thing is this- you need to figure out how to make your life match the kind of brain you have, not the other way around. You are going to have a hard time trying to fit yourself into the same roles and routines that other people have. There are absolutely ways to make this work for you- I worked in super high paced hospitality jobs for years because that worked really well for my hyper brain, and often meant I could sleep all day if I wanted to. Even now that I have a more “normal” job, I’m doing something I have total autonomy over, and have what’s probably a pretty unconventional lifestyle by most people standards. But I’m not most people, and I’m more comfortable than I’ve ever been, so who cares? Final thing- I don’t know what sort of speech and language therapy you’ve had before (so sorry if you know this already!) but lots of what we do with stuttering now sees it as part of neurodiversity and is more about affirmation and acceptance- basically learning to live with your stutter and advocate for yourself. I’m not US based but you guys have the National Stuttering Association who look to have some good resources and groups around these ideas (if anyone reading has better suggestions or see anything wrong with this recommendation please correct me!!) Please take care, you are not alone ❤️