It’s this mindset that’s going to hold you back, not your stutter. I wish I’d realised this at 16 and not at 22. If you go through life letting the way you speak control you and stop you doing things it really is going to hold you back in every area of your life. As mkjiiisus already pointed out you’re best to find something that does involve speaking to build your communication skills. I found self help for the stutterer by Malcolm Fraser so helpful, especially the parts that deal with the negative thoughts and feelings that come with stuttering. https://www.stutteringhelp.org/Portals/English/book0012_11th_ed.pdf