Hi. First of all, I totally understand where you’re coming from. I have stuttered since I started talking as a kid and let me tell you, it has not been easy. I’m a girl, 30F, and though now I care less and less about it, my teenage years were painful (though I was lucky to be in a school with super nice kids and no one ever made fun of me). I have read all I could find about stuttering. I have seen speech therapists for 10+ years which did NOTHING for me because unfortunately speech therapists still have very little understanding of what stuttering is and where it comes from. Also, since we don’t stutter when talking alone or singing, it is not a problem linked to pronunciation or anything like that. For me, it is clearly anxiety fuelled, and it gets worse when I’m tired. I can see that you wrote above in a comment “I want to control my stutter”. That’s exactly what I tried to do for years. And the more I tried to control it, the worse it got. On the other hand, when I was super angry at one of my siblings for example during a fight and would lash out at them, I would never stutter. Or when I was slightly tipsy during college parties and was talking to friends I would not stutter either. So it’s when I didn’t think about controlling my speech that the words actually came out fine. I really thought a lot about this, and one day I stumbled upon the pdf version of a book written by former stutterer Ruth Mead, “Speech is a River”. I read it immediately and it has helped me understand so much more on stuttering and how to overcome it. And let me tell you, trying to control your stuttering will not help, quite the contrary. You have to learn to let go, think about what you want to say instead of how you’re going to say it. You can find the pdf super easily on internet and I recommend you read it because it is extremely helpful in understanding what is going on in our heads and what we can do to improve. I am getting better now. I’m definitely not there yet, I still get suuuper anxious in certain situations (I have to do a speech in front of 400 people at a wedding in June 2021 and I’m already freaking out lol), but it has helped a lot. Stay strong! Apologies in advance for the writing errors as English is not my first language :)