postr/StutterJune 2, 2023

Eye contact enemy #1

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Eye contact enemy #1 It’s gotten so bad. I’m at such a low point I don’t know how to pull myself out of it. I can’t even look my girlfriend in the eyes when I talk. I hit a block and instantly closes my eyes, look away, and jerk my head around. It’s been a while since my stutter has been this bad. I really try to maintain eye contact, but I can’t. It’s not that I’m not capable of it, I just don’t know how. What helps? I’ve tried voluntary stuttering, disclosing, easy onset… etc. I practice in front of the mirror, but it’s so different when I talk to people. I usually end up avoiding words I know I’ll block on. This isn’t a pity party. I want to do better. I want to overcome this. Not the stuttering part, the eye contact part. I want to be able to stutter while maintaining eye contact. I’m tired of the shame

Themes

Anticipation & AvoidanceCoping & AdvocacyEmotional ExperienceIdentity & Disability

Subthemes

Avoidance & SubstitutionHiding & ConcealmentFluency TechniquesVoluntary Stuttering & ExposureShame & EmbarrassmentAuthenticity vs. Masking