Hey drtmnry, I’m really sorry for what you’re going through. I’ve been in your shoes, and it’s really difficult to ever see things getting better. But it does. Maybe not as fast as you’d like, but it does get better. Many of us in the community have had low periods where our speech is just wrecked. It’s painful, and again I’m sorry to hear. I do want to tell you that from being in your shoes, stuttering is beatable! It takes time, and there’s no magic bullet, but there is reason for hope! I’d like to try and help you. I stuttered badly for over 20 years and found a unique way to overcome stuttering and make myself nearly fluent. I started a YouTube channel to share what worked for me, and hope it will help you. Feel free to check it out: YouTube.com/@realCraigCoffee